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Sunday, 31 May 2009

Re: New England

I have no idea what the dates would be or where the show would be, thats why I was asking questions. Just one of the many things I would have to figure out.

Where would I be able to get the largest audience? I would have to get at least 70 people to the show, and that is daunting considering that I won't be in town for very long.

At the very least I could stay an extra few days and visit people.

Just looking at my options right now.

Friday, 29 May 2009

New England in August... Comedy anyone?

I am planning on being in New Hampshire in the beginning of August for Daniel Geaslen's wedding on the 1st, and since I am going to be there, how about an Honor Academy reunion/comedy show. I would need to start working on booking a venue soon.

If this sounds awesome... no wait, check that... if this sound legendary to you, let me know ASAP. To make it an amazing show I would need to have somewhere between 50 and 70 people show up. You guys are my only connection to that part of the country so I would be counting on you to get the word out and get people to the show, which of course means you would be a promoter and would get in for free, and possibly some profit sharing (there would be specific number for this to work but we'll figure that out later).

I NEED feedback on this, or it will never happen, so this what I need to know:

1. Are you interested? And what level are interested at? Give me a range of people you think you could get out to the show including yourself (5-10, 1-3, 10-20), whatever you think you could do, There is no wrong number, it all just depends on your personality really, some people are just naturally amazing at getting people to go out and have fun.

2. What city would be best for something like this? Centrally located and all that. And where do you live?

3. What night would be good? Wednesday and Thursday are easier to book venues for, but this far in advance I can probably get a room on a Friday or Saturday night. But for that I would need Serious interest.

Okay I know that is a lot, but I want to make sure I can put on a successful show.

P.S. If you read this and you live in a different part of the country and you would like for me to come out and do a show, we can work probably work that out, so let me know if you are interested.
Colorado

Who are my Coloradian readers?

I have an announcement. I will be producing an amazing Comedy extravaganza in the Denver area at a secret location on Wednesday July 8th. Save the date. More information to follow.

If you are living in Colorado right now please comment and let me know who you are.
Thank you

Thanks for all the comments guys. I really appreciate your love and support. Someday, when I begin to catch up with my writing, I will write a very real, but cool headed blog about what I am feeling about Jesus, Christians, and Christianity. If and when I write this I would love to have open dialogue.

I will say this for now, I don't feel bad for having doubts, I am not beating myself up. That was the first thing I gave up when I started slipping away. In fact I gave that up long before I ever gave up on God. And it has been wonderful. "There is therefore now no condemnation." That is probably my favorite scripture verse after, "He who rises early in the morning and greets his neighbor in a loud voice, it shall be counted a curse to him."

The biggest disparity I see between Christians and the Bible is their constant beating themselves up and making others out to be horrible sinners. What give them the God damn right to damn someone from God? Oh I hate self-righteousness. It smells like... you know that smell after you killed someone, I mean after that wonderful victorious feeling has gone away and after you have tasted that oh so sweet human heart, when you have been trying to get rid of the body, but you have been unable to do so, and they have been sitting in you trunk for a few days, and you accidentally left your car in the sun and then that stink that will never actually go away makes you realize now you have to dump the body AND the car... Its like that.

So no, I feel great, I was in a bad place for a few days because I rented a comedy club to have a show and everything was going wrong and I was losing money, and very few people showed up. But now I know how to produce a show and the next one will be better, and I will protect myself from going to that dark unproductive place again.

I also not sorry I said what I said to God, I'm not sorry for yelling at him or being angry with him, at least I'm not sorry to you for that. If he is who we say he is then he is big enough to handle little old me yelling at him. No, the reason I felt the need to apologize is that I wrote what I wrote because I was being malicious and I wanted to make my readers feel bad. I purposefully used derogatory scatological language to be as offensive as possible. And I am pretty sure that while I am not convinced that sinning is at all what I grew up to believe it is, I am certain that I wrote from a place of malice, and if God is love, or if love is only the highest ideal we have as human beings, I fell short of the mark, therefore I sinned. For that, and that alone, I apologize.

Saturday, 23 May 2009

hI I'm sorry for being an ass

I would like to apologize to you guys. God can take it, and he hasn't struck me down with lightning yet, so we'll work it out. But I did not need to take my anger at life, the universe, and everything, out on you guys by being as offensive as possible.

Last week was one of the most difficult weeks of my life, I became a stand up comedy producer and everything went wrong. I am writing a new blog about the tragedy and victories of the day.

I am also having a crisis of faith these days. Its been going on for a very long time. Probably since the day I graduated from Teen Mania, and saw that the world wasn't like Ron Luce said it was. Not blaming him, he obviously sincerely believes what he believes. Who am I to say he or any of the other Christian leaders I have followed since then are wrong? I have no idea. Thats the problem, I don't have a clue. I remember when I believed that God was speaking to me. I looked back on a lot of "prophesies" that I had written down and saw a simple pattern, when God speaks to me I get excited then fizzle out. Just like I am with my big ideas, I'm sure this one is it, I have never had an idea this good before! God gave me this idea, this is inspired. Maybe that was the problem, I was told that I should expect God to answer prayers and I thought I could expect Him to follow through on prophesies. Especially when they are in old english or have nifty rhymes like 2009 we're doin' fine! Because obviously God speak to his people through bad poetry. I don't know, I haven't stopped believing in god, nor have I stopped believing that Jesus died for me. But there is something missing, and there is even more added to compensate for the missing...

Maybe I'll take the time to write more about it. Maybe I just need to write and explore new ideas, and read and occasionally go to church. I miss praise and worship, I really do, that was my favorite, the simple abandon. I miss loving Jesus, and feeling that heart tug to be with him, but who am I kidding those times were incredibly far and few between. So yeah, crisis of faith. I don't know how you do it. I feel like to be a good Christian I have close my eyes and plug my ears and yell, "LA LA LA LA LA" to drown out the sin. Maybe I have just been enticed by the world, and found that it wasn't as bad as they said it was. Maybe I a blind hedonist spiraling into death and decay, and my sin is going eat me alive and pay me in death. Or maybe I'll do my best to love people, and I'll not judge them, and I'll work out to be a perfect image of Jesus anyway. Its all doubtful. We'll see, if need be i can still BS Christianity with the best of them.

Anyway, I do apologize for being such a jerk with the blog i deleted.